this is a dwarf hotot and it is the cutest bunny in the world. <3 <3 <3

i have never felt such an affinity for a real animal.

when i held a real rabbit for the first time, i thought that if i hugged it too hard it would break. it was warm, squirmy and fragile. also suicidal.

(oh... no wonder all the animals ran away from Elmyra...)

OMG, i need a compact little rabbit with eyeliner and black ears. i will call him Emo and he will write bad poetry and whine on his blog about how much his life sucks.

Sometimes I feel like life has no more meaning. Then I know it's time to go shopping. I'm going to Muji after this to spend money.

I think there was a time when I wasn't this shallow. Or at least not this consciously shallow.

Stella reminded me the other day about how serious and earnest we used to be in JC. I actually sat down with her and Mich and made a solemn pact to never let each other get into an abusive relationship. Also, when I was in JC I wanted to either change or rule the world, preferably both. Dreams of revolution and living for ideals; freedom, beauty, truth and love. (How many times have I watched Moulin Rouge?) I used to stay up all night on the phone with Gail, complaining about but secretly relishing how much we tortured ourselves emotionally.

And now, like Flora Poste, I just want things around me to be tidy and orderly. Last night I was watching some people parachuting down a ravine on TV and I found myself saying to my mother, "I just want a quiet life. I don't need excitement or adrenaline." I just want to go home after a long day at work and read a nice book, or watch some TV, and then sleep the sleep of the weary but undefeated. On weekends I will sleep, feel grateful I don't have to go back to the office, maybe bake a cake or cook something nice... See what I have been reduced to?

tagged by aime

1. One book you have read more than once
How about the book I love but haven't read more than once? Hello, Gormenghast triology.

2. One book you would want on a desert island
The book that is secretly a satellite phone and GPS unit so I can get off the desert island and go back to reading books.

3. One book that made you laugh
Molesworth!

4. One book that made you cry
The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane by Kate Dicamillo.

5. One book you wish you had written
Northern Lights by Philip Pullman.

6. One book you wish had never been written
The Da Vinci Code.

7. One book you are currently reading
The Gastronomical Me by MFK Fisher.

8. One book you have been meaning to read
Tristram Shandy. Jude the Obscure. Persuasion. On Beauty. Night Watch.

9. One book that changed your life
Neuromancer by William Gibson.

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